by Nieve44/La Luz
Happy holidays everyone.
This is a particularly difficult post for me, as failure is generally something I hide in the deep recesses of my personal experience, never to be seen by the light of day. So, in the spirit of pre-new years clearing, here goes.
I will not be awarded a yoga teacher training certification in 2012, I was not successful in completing the yoga teacher training program I enrolled in (with your help and support), during March 2011. As such, Aya Healing, as I initially envisioned it, will not begin work, at this time.
The long and short of it is this. At the beginning of 2011, I was diagnosed with a relatively serious health condition. Thankfully, we caught it in the early stages (no its not cancer, no I’m not going to die), however, it has required some serious lifestyle changes, that I couldn’t have imagined in early 2011. What I thought would only require my temporary absence from my relatively high contact co-ed flag football league, ended up requiring a full on leave of absence from all of the physical activities in my life: flag football, active forms of yoga, running, working out, weight training, races, pretty much anything that could put any strain on my joints, or get my heart rate above 140.
It also required massive changes in diet, daily scheduling and the way in which I engage socially.
There have been many days where I was home bound and just couldn’t get to the yoga studio. There were other days when I simply had to make the choice, do I use my limited energy on yoga or work? yoga or my dissertation? yoga or spending much needed time with friends and family? (isolation is a very real and scary part of my new reality). As a result, I will not be receiving my yoga teacher certification at this time.
To all of those I may have let down or disappointed, I hope you can accept my sincere apologies. Please know that the love and support you showered on me during this effort was truly a transformative experience. While I will not be able to change the world (today) with what I learned during my yoga teacher training, I can tell you with full confidence that what I learned in 2011 has been and continues to be critical to my long journey of healing.
Ultimately, in this new reality of mine, I am learning that failure is OK. That oftentimes, in the shards of our broken dreams, are the foundational pieces of a stronger self.
Thank you for your love and understanding.
Happy new year!
peace.
a
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I would not consider this a failure at all, please take that out of your vocabulary. You are awesome whether you complete the training or not
Well, it’s not lke you gave up on a whim. This is something that you gave a genuine effort. You can only do what your body and soul will allow you to do within a given space and time. There is a time for everything. Just keep the goal in sight. You’ve done something just by aspiring toward this goal. You have sparked something, and I doubt very seriously that it will fade away. Someone somewhere will pick up the torch, whether it’s you or someone else that has been inspired to continue the work that you have begun. Somewhere, someone has read about what you are trying to do, and they are inspired to feel, to commit to or to start something. You have done more than you think, even if you don’t see it materialize right away. Keep pushing for it.
Definitely not a failure sands! Just a learning experience. Still proud of u!
Big love and big hugs to you Alex. Your greater destiny still awaits – these are stair steps to an end point we cannot always “lead”. Sometimes being lead is also our greatest challenge. I pray that you trust in your higher calling and know that your journey has been and will continue to be fruitful and abundant with knowledge and insight.
I agree with everyone else. This is NOT failure. You will do everything you set out to and then some. Love you and so proud of you!